Isaiah 40:31 Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint. NIV
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. NIV
I wish I could tell you I had all the answers as to why things sometimes turn out the way they do. I know as I was growing up and into my early adulthood, I had certain goals and plans that I aspired to make come to fruition. I was going to marry the man of my dreams, have healthy children and a great job. If I worked really hard then certainly things would go as planned. While I did meet my amazing husband from God that I’m thankful for everyday, my second pregnancy threw our lives into a whirlwind.
Little did I know that the years to come would bring year after year of doctor appointments, hospitals, counselors, centers and nutritionists. This affected my ability to work and help earn an income. Praise the Lord, I had a newspaper route that I could take my children along with me if I needed to and had a fairly flexible schedule. There were times I had no clue how to pay mounting hospital bills, hotels, medical supplies and on and on. Even then I wasn’t sure if all my efforts were going to be in vain. There were many nights when I would literally fall asleep on the living room floor with swollen teary eyes from crying out to God to please let my daughter actually wake up the next morning. When Stanford Children’s Hospital sent us home with feeding tubes it was my last hope from an outside source other than God. I learned how to insert them and had a schedule I followed to a tee. When she got sick and they all came up I was scared and hopeless. I called out to God and said, “Your will be done!” I literally had to give to God my worst and most painful fears and say that I gave Him all control. I couldn’t even as her mama give her the motivation and desire to work through the pain to make a conscious effort to want to live. Although her disabilities will never leave her with the ability to move out of our home on her own, I am praising God that I still have her with me. What I thought my life would be isn’t at all how I planned it out but I decided to change my happiness and outlook on life so that I’m perfectly happy with what God has given me.
We all have a story of pain or a life that threw us a major curve ball we never saw coming. I encourage whatever challenges you may be going through today to start praising God for the one small flower amidst a field of weeds. If you’ve lost a loved one then Praise Jesus they are now in heaven with no pain and that someday we’ll have a glorious reunion with them. If you are job searching then be thankful it’s almost the Holiday season and part-time jobs are coming available even if it’s not a high paying desirable full time job. If you’ve been hit by loneliness or divorce then be thankful for even a friend to hang out with. Instead of getting frustrated you’re not at what you think your ideal weight should be then start being grateful for even one pound lost or one centimeter lost. If you’re struggling with addiction then be so proud of yourself for even one day clean!
I have to do this myself daily and I encourage you to try it. And no matter what you’re facing today there’s a God in heaven who loves you so much and sees your weariness, pain and all your struggles. You are never alone!! If anyone has anything we could pray about please leave your requests below. My heart is to encourage you and help you through this journey we call life:) Blessings and rest to all on this beautiful Sunday.